When I was young I already had a great love for nature. As I got older I discovered the Great Mother through the Wicca movement and at the age of eleven I devoted myself to Her. She inspired me and gave me a deep sense of Being through the cycle of nature. I could surrender to the changes, in myself and around me. From her I learned to transcend the wheel, to stand in the middle.
During my adolescence I completely lost that connection due to a number of unpleasant events. I wandered through the world like a seeker, looking for my self, my identity in this tangle, this maze of impressions. Completely absorbed in my mind. Thinking, knowledge, performance, strength without vulnerability, rationality, analysis ... I no longer had any awareness of my menstrual cycle because I was on the pill, I had no idea of my beautiful woman's rhythm that was identical to the circle of life and the Moon. I lost nature because I lived in the city, I drank, smoked and I went to party every weekend. I did not find myself, on the contrary; I only lost myself more because of this ..
Later I went back to study the nature religion and mythology of these regions; of the Netherlands and northwestern Europe. I discovered paganism and I came into contact with the Matrons and the goddess cult, the religion of the indigenous Europeans.
I began to recognize the symbols in my ancestors' religion, from reindeer hunter to Christianity. Through the books of Marija Gimbutas and Annine van der Meer I learned to recognize the Goddess language again, to read Her hidden language again.
All this gave me an incredibly great feeling of coming home, of recognition, I belonged to Her, It was She who had always called me, whether whispering but compelling, even when I was so young ... And like a seed that grew in me planned on the eve that my father died and we saw planet Venus shining in the sky together, as bright as a beacon as my father described it, that's how my transformation began. When he died, something deep inside me also died ... and at the same time I was reborn, by the Lady in heaven, it felt like that, the Dark Death Lady. An intensely mystical experience that I can only somewhat translate into words through poetry.
I was completely empty, withdrawn from any idea of identity, and it was then that I came back home and slowly began to put everything back together ...
I was who I was again, who I had to be, the fog cleared, I stopped dyeing my hair, smoking and drinking and went to live in my father's house in the polders, away from the stinking city with all its noise ; finally silence. Peace. Coming home literally and figuratively to my native soil.
Then I started to suffer from unexplained fears and cardiac arrhythmias. The doctors said nothing was wrong and I couldn't explain my spontaneous fears of all kinds of things. I struggled with these physical and mental complaints for a year, until I quit my old job and dedicated myself to spiritual work and shamanism. From then on everything calmed down and the complaints disappeared.
Mother Earth is currently having a hard time because of our way of life. This cannot continue like this, we are causing her and her creatures much suffering. It is my mission not only to help people to connect with their own soul and the feminine in order to become more personally in balance, our Mother Earth also needs our help. The message that we are one behind all forms, that there is a source from which we all come, we so desperately need right now to realize that what we do to each other and to the Earth, we also do to ourselves.
It is my deepest wish that we learn anew that we are all connected and that we are part of nature, rather than standing above it. I want to help people around me become aware of the love that comes from this unity and that they think more about their way of life in relation to others, themselves, the animals and our beautiful planet.
I have experience working with women, feminine energy and the Mother Goddess. I want to help to give our own traditions, which have such ancient roots, from times when people were more connected with the Cosmic Cycle, the seasons and the lunar phases, to give new meaning, old knowledge in a modern guise, without detracting from the essence.
In addition, I work within the tradition of Spirit of Wolf and I am a personal student of Shaman Morsuk . This tradition comes from Chakassia, Siberia but can rightly be called Classic or Traditional Shamanism. I always work with the Dutch spirits, ancestors and other spirits - despite the fact that I work within the above tradition. This is absolutely not mutually exclusive.
We have to learn to speak the language of nature again. Not only the Lowland traditions and paganism, but also Europe and all our ancestors. We descendants can do this. Not only the language of nature, but also of love and unity. We come from the same source of Origin, all people on earth, we are brothers and sisters. Let's celebrate unity in diversity. Let's embrace each other in love.
- Mirjam van Donselaar, 2021
With teacher Morsuk Kam
- NOBCO (Dutch Association of Professional Coaches)
- Trees For All (Planting trees with ritual)
- Spirit of Wolf (International community of traditional shamanism)
Experience and backgrounds:
2011 - Training Caregiver IG (Rotterdam)
2014 - Graduated Bachelor of Science in Applied Psychology (Hogeschool Leiden)
2015 - Mourning woman training (Linda Wormhoudt, A'dam)
2016 - Establishment of Sibbe Fernjawegan (paganism and paganism)
2016 - Rite of the Womb 3x (Klara Adalena) + Womb Keeper
2016 - Basic training in shamanism (Peter de Haan + Lucia Klinefelter)
2016 - Workshops Shamanism & Systemic Ritual® (Suzanne Hazen)
2016 - Masterclass Mourning Woman (Linda Wormhoudt)
2018 - Establishment of Het Vrouwenrad + van Donselaar - Applied Psychology
2018 - Life course coach for people with autism
2018 - Classic Massage (M00D Massage) KTNO accredited
2018 - Instructor Bootcamp (at the AALO)
2019 - Publication book "Dagaz" , self-published
2019 - Zen meditation (ZenDoen, Gouda)
2020 - Founder and member of the Dutch office of Spirit of Wolf (international shamanic network)
2020 - 1st Initiation in Traditional Shamanism, line of Spirit of Wolf (Chakassia) from Morsuk Kam / Karagai Kam
2020 - Tarot training , individual with Frances Aarts
2020 - Publication book "de Heilige Nachten" A3 Books (Oct. 2020)
2020 - Magnetisation basic study with practical weekend, at Civas
2021 - Block 1 - Family constellations - basis, with Susanne Hazen
2021 - Block 2 - The basis of Systemic Ritual , connecting with sources of power, with Susanne Hazen
2021 - Block 3 - Systemic Ritual , family themes and ancestors, with Susanne Hazen
2021 - Course Moxa Therapy , at Zonnevlecht courses